1- A Breeder

Karla

"Your words are 'Yes' and 'My Lord'"

The tears that fall from my eyes makes me realise once again that I'm living in my worst nightmare. This isn't a dream and I'm not going to suddenly wake up no matter how much I want to or pray to the goddess to make it so.

"You will not speak unless he speaks to you," she's walking behind me, tapping the flat wooden stick on her chin as she dishes out these rules. "You will not laugh at any joke, there is no fun in this palace, only seriousness and that has brought us this far."

I can hear his laughter in my head-- our laughter after a passionate love making, of course.

"You will bend when he tells you to bend-"

"Ah!" I wince, arching my back when the stick lands on my bare bottom in a hard spank and more tears roll down my cheeks.

"Spread your legs when he wants it and you'll roll on your back as a sign of your submission," her words are sharp and they sting in my ears bringing tears to my eyes.

"Your body now belongs to the Alpha."

When has it never? A body I had always loved to share with him. He was mine and I was his-- at least, that was what he made me believe.

"These are the simple rules that guide the assigned Breeders. I trust you'll have no trouble following them."

A breeder.

A horrid fate that I now suffer. 

A breeder. I used to be so much more. I had my whole life planned out for me.

I'm from the long lasting line of the Beta family, next in line after my father and I've been training my whole life for this position. With my head held high and my family's name resting on my shoulders, I looked forward to carrying on the next line of Beta's for the Alpha family.

My dream, however, was short-lived and all for what?

"Is that clear?" She half screams, startling me and I tense up, looking at myself in the mirror in front of me.

I've been dolled up for the Alpha like a pretty little slut, dressed to entice him and henceforth, I must live only for his pleasure with the sole aim of bearing his pups.

Taking a deep breath, I shudder in my words, "Crystal." And I'm instantly led into the bedroom where I must sit and wait for his nightly visits.

Tonight, while he celebrates his coronation, I sit by the window and stare at the moon, with nothing but questions in my heart 

All I did was love him, how could he reduce me to nothing like this?

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It's midnight when the party comes to an end. The noise dies down, the chants for the Alpha to live a good and healthy life are nothing more than whispers in the silent sky while I lay in my bed, lifeless and drained of every will to live.

I mustn't ruin the make-up that the maids spent hours upon, after all, I must look good for the Alpha.

I pick up footsteps approaching my chambers and my heart skips a beat as I rise to my feet, ready to greet the one who turned my fate with just mere sentences and words.

As he approaches further, I feel the pull in my wolf. She senses her mate and rejoices in his presence. Has she no idea the calamity that has befallen us? Nothing matters to her, I presume. As long as she can see him and still smell him as her own--

The door opens and my thoughts suddenly halt as I keep my blurry eyes on the floor, afraid to lift them for fear that I would be swayed by this man and his handsome face.

"Karla," just the mere calling of my name and I'm shivering in my own skin. His scent fills my nose and I suddenly don't want to breathe anymore.

Everything that reminds me of him hurts.

He walks closer, his footsteps heavy on the floor and it resonates in my heart. My name still echoes in the wind and I turn my face away, closing my eyes when I feel the warmth of his body. He's standing so close... Too close.

"Alpha-" I inhale deeply and start to curtsey but his hand grips my arm, stopping me from going any lower.

Why? He's already ruined me, I'm no better than a dog begging for scrubs from underneath the table.

"Karla," he calls my name with a familiarity that breaks my heart. In all the three years he's said it, it has never for once hurt as badly as it does now.

His cold hands touch my cheek and he's cupping my face with one hand while the other settles on my waist, playing dangerously around the lace of my corset.

One tug and it all comes undone.

He pulls me closer but my eyes remain shut. I caught a whiff of alcohol on him-- it must've been a wonderful coronation. Too bad I couldn't attend.

A woman's life comes to an end when she's chosen to be a breeder. She must have no contact with the outside world and can only be seen with other women and the Alpha. Even my father is forbidden from seeing me eye to eye.

The more I think about these things, the further my heart breaks. How could he-- 

"How could you do this to me?" My voice breaks and my knees give out. I fall into his arms and he holds me up strongly but these arms that once used to be my home now feel like a prison.

I can't breathe. I'm choked up. I couldn't hold it in any longer, nor could I pretend to be strong. This is my limit. The dam broke and I'm sobbing hot tears that make me shiver and tremble, almost falling to my knees but he won't let me.

"How could you do this to me, Collins? After everything..." I hiccup and place a hand over my mouth to silence myself. Memories of our nights together, sneaking around the Pack to enjoy a little physical contact with each other.

I'd walk a mile to take a kiss, a touch of his hand and sneak out at midnight for some good loving when he masters my body and shows me how skilled he is with that rod between his legs.

How did it turn out this way? Why?

"A breeder?" I ask, still doubting the reality of my fate.

I feel his muscles tighten as he clenches his fist, "It's the only way we can be together-"

"No!" I protest weakly, so weak that anyone would think I'm trying to seduce him. I push away from his arms, fighting his hold when he tries to get me to stay but, " Let go of me. Let me-"

"Karla-"

"Let me go, Collins!" I scream, stomping my feet as his hold on me loosens and I finally manage to get away. I gather fresh air into my lungs but what's the use, everything around me feels like it's out to get me.

"You said you had plans for us-"

"Karla-"

"You said I should trust you," I turn to face him and finally lift my eyes to that face-- that blue eyes I admire so much looks back at me with a defeated but firm look and once again the reality crashes into me.

"You're never taking it back, are you?" It suddenly dawns on me and I'm walking back to him. "Collins, you're not taking it back-"

"I cannot withdraw my word,"

Like hell he can't! "Do you know what you've done to me? Collins, you've ruined my life. A breeder--"

"At least then we'll be together-"

"A breeder!" I scream, my voice echoing back at me and he looks away, clenching on his jaw. That long hair resting on his shoulders, his fair winter skin that makes him stand out and his wide body frame-- none of it looks as attractive as it used to.

He's gone from my mate to my captor.

He knew of my dreams and my aspirations. How much I so desired to contest for the head Beta role even when all the odds were against me since I was a female but my chances weren't that slim as my brothers were still so young.

I could already see my victory, my status and he ruined it by declaring me as his breeder.

"You do not love me," I have come to the realization and it fucking hurts but Collins snaps his head to me at once, looking shocked at my accusations.

"You know that's not true. You know I've long had a betrothed even before you came in the picture. I can't go against the arrangements-"

I'm shaking my head as he speaks, my heart ripping apart with each word that falls from his mouth.

"I know the title is belittling, but it shouldn't matter, Karla. You have me-"

"What about me!" I cry out with a breaking voice. "What about… what about my happiness-"

"Karla, you have me. I'm here. We'll be together-"

"And you'll be with her!" It hurts to even think about. "I have my own future destroyed and ruined because you can't seem to fight for us yet I should take it and 'be happy'," I air-quote in mock. "because you are all that matters?"

The look on his face horrifies me and I'm taking a step back. This isn't love, if anything he's obsessed with me and only sees me as his possession. 

I can't... I can't do this.

"Reject me."

"What?"

It hurts to say but I'd rather go through this humiliation knowing I have no one by my side than have a mate subject me to this mindless torture 

Mustering up the courage with a deep breath, I recite the rejection words with a breaking heart, "I, Karla Morgan-"

Fear and panic flashes in his orbs, "Karla, stop this at once!"

"... reject you, Alpha Collins McCoy as my--"

The rest of my words don't leave my throat as his hand slaps hard over my mouth, shutting me and I jolt in panic.

"I said, shut the fuck up!" He growls, using his Alpha command to make me shiver in fear. I can't break away from his bloodshot eyes as his wolf dances behind them, glaring me into submission. In all our three years of relationship, I've never seen him so pissed in all my life.

"You'll take what the fuck I give you. I'm doing this for us, Karla. You and me. No one has to know so just play your fucking part and I'll do mine," my corset loosens at the back and I whimper in fear.

"I'll give you a good fuck every night and you'll stay here, happy to have your mate. Isn't that all you've ever wanted?"

There was no love nor emotions in the eyes

 of the man who glared at me as he delivered those cold words and for the first time since we've been together, I don't want this man anywhere near my body.